I'm not gonna lie, I had been rethinking this whole stay at home mom thing for the past few months. I was bored, ridiculously so. That's hard to admit and even makes me feel profoundly guilty but there it is.
I even found a job, a good job, a job that I would find interesting, a job that paid well, a job that didn't require me to speak German. Thinking about whether to apply for the job or not forced me to really think about the whole stay at home mom thing.
Here's the kicker though- I didn't want someone else taking care of Moses. I didn't want to only see him for maybe an hour in the morning (while rushing around getting ready) and an hour in the evening (when he is be cranky and tired). I like him after all, I was just bored. Really bored. But I didn't want to go back to work because I was bored.
So I did what I always do- I thought about it a lot. And by a lot, I mean A LOT. I talked to Andreas about it several times. I even wrote down my thoughts in an effort to sort them out. And I prayed.
And this is the conclusion I came to - I'm not going to go back to work. Not yet, not if we are okay financially. I was going to figure out a way to make this whole stay at home mom thing work for me. And for Moses.
And so I did some more thinking, more talking, more writing and more praying and I came up with a solution. I decided that if I was bored Moses probably was too. I came up with a routine for us to follow, with set things for every day. I came up with activities for us to do when we were bored and acting out (usually Mosey is the one acting out but I'm not excluding myself entirely). Who doesn't want to bike out to the airport and watch planes take off or go visit the bears? And I decided to stop taking a nap when Moses does in the middle of the day. Now for those who know me this may seem drastic but its working. Its giving me my own time for a few hours.
And you know what? It's working. We are both doing better. So I'm thankful for the fact that our prayers are truly heard and answered.
4 comments:
Routines are the best. I treasure the times when the kids are all taking naps because it happens so rarely. That is my me time. My routine could definately use some work, but it's a learning process all the time. He does hear and answer our prayers and it is good to know that He is always there for us and listening.
You are such a beautiful family. So good to hear your experience, any tips?
I'm glad that you found a way to make things work for you and Moses. I think that routines help everyone. When Toby was a baby we had the exact same routine every day. And looking back I can see that it made things easier for us all. I wish I could stick to a routine for me. I might get more accomplished.
Routines are essential for children - and they aren't bad for adults either. All I have to do at school is change the routine - and chaos ensues!!
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