Andreas says I've turned this into a baby blog and I guess he's right. The vast majority of my posts feature Moses. But I think that's only natural. My life is Moses as the moment- twenty four hours a day, seven days a week. I haven't slept more than 3 hours at a time since March 11th. Come rain, shine, illness or grumpy mood- I'm Moses' mom. My days consist of feeding my child, keeping him clean, playing with him, going on walks, teaching him new things, watching him discover the world, acting ridiculous just to get a smile or a laugh/scream out of him. I do laundry, clean the kitchen, vacuum, tidy up, go to the grocery store, the library, the post office, cook dinner. Right now my biggest concern is sleep (both his and mine). I worry about Moses every day. Is he getting enough to eat? Why can't he fall asleep on his own? Is is bad that I still hold him until he falls asleep? Is it okay that I started him on solids and then stopped again because I didn't think he was quite ready for it? Is he happy? Am I going to mess this up? Normal mom-like worries I feel.
How different my life is from just last year. Last year my days consisted of working (working and working some more), stressing out (usually because of work), sleeping all weekend, waking up to an alarm clock (after sleeping *gasp* 8 or 9 hours in a row!), sometimes making dinner but usually just having cereal, spending money however I wanted to and not really thinking about it, traipsing around Europe every month or so with my super cute Swiss husband.
I still have my super cute Swiss husband. I don't miss my alarm clock, or working (although I miss my paycheck). I do miss not being up to date on whats going on in the world but that's something I can change. I should read the news instead of doing research on strollers or catching up on apartment therapy. I somehow don't mind that I smell faintly of baby vomit every day. The night before last I sat up in bed for hours, half asleep, holding my baby upright so he could breath as he slept. I'm tired. I realized then that its all different now. I'm a mom. It's a new life. I'm okay with it.
4 comments:
By now though, that little guy should be sleeping longer than 3 hours at a stretch - you need to get tough!!
But then, I never had a child who didn't just start sleeping long stretches on his/her own, so maybe I don't know what I'm talking about!! I hope you at least take naps!!
Moses is so lucky you are his mama!
Judging by the double chin, I think he is getting enough to eat.
Hester, I love reading and seeing your pics of your 'new' life on your blog. (Even though I don't comment as often as I should, I really do look.)
Being a mom is learning in itself and I'm afraid it just doesn't end. It looks like you are doing a fantastic job!
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