"Lord, I would follow thee"

This has been a really difficult week for me. My freshman roomate, Amanda, died friday night. She was diagnosed with luekemia almost two years ago but last i had heard was doing really well. When another old roomate called saturday night to let me know i didn't know what to do. I was in total shock. It still seems so surreal. You are not supposed to die at the age of 23. Her type of cancer has a high cure rate, especially within her age bracket. Today i was able to go to her funeral and it really helped. Amanda was amazing. I remember that we both decided to go into nursing at the same time. Well, she decided a few months before me and i made fun of her nonstop until the day i decided to join her. She would have been an amazing nurse. I've come to realize that nursing truly is a calling and Amanda had that gift. Its ironic that i am the one actually finishing nursing school now. I have never known anyone with such an amazing testimony of Jesus Christ. She was literally the strongest person i have ever known. We sang "Lord, I would follow thee" at her funeral this morning and i think it encompasses everything amanda represents. She willingly went, without malice, where the lord needed her most. I don't even know what i'm saying or if it even makes sense. I just wanted people to know that she's gone now and it truly is a tragedy. I love her. I miss you Amanda.